Update: Stuck (Stitch Trilogy, Book 3) Release

Dear Readers,

I know you have been patiently waiting for an announcement about the Stuck (Stitch Trilogy, Book 3) release date, and I cannot even begin to express how much it means to me that you are so invested in this series.  You guys are truly amazing, and I am incredibly lucky to have so many enthusiastic and dedicated readers.  And so, it is with a heavy heart that I’ve decided to postpone the release of the book.

As many of you may have heard, I suffered an incredibly difficult personal trauma in October, the ramifications of which are still shaping every moment of my existence.  When I announced an expected 2014 release date for Stuck last year, I never in my wildest dreams (nightmares) imagined that 2014 would be spent piecing my life back together after burying my only child.  My most fundamental beliefs – about the way the world works, about the nature of God, about what I have been put on this earth to do – have been irrevocably altered. In light of everything I am struggling to comprehend, I simply cannot fathom giving this trilogy the conclusion it deserves at this point in time.

As you know, my books are not a “light” read – they are complex, and they require deep and critical thought to construct.  I just do not have the capacity to handle it right now.  For the past several months, I kept thinking that I would wake up one day soon and that writing this book would feel like a relief, but instead, it continues to feel like an unbearable weight.  The thought of taking on a project of this magnitude at this point just makes me want to dig a hole next to my daughter’s grave, climb in, and pull the dirt back over myself.  If you have never grieved like this (as I hadn’t before now), I know it seems unthinkable, but even almost seven months out and with the best support anyone could ask for, I am still in survival mode; it’s all I can do just to make it through each day. Sure, I look like I’m functioning from the outside – I’m able to feed and dress myself, and to not pass the entire day in tears, so I guess that’s progress from where I was at a few months ago.  But I am not “better.”  I cannot just go on with my life as if nothing has happened.

I was supposed to be writing this book during the happiest time of my life, with my beautiful baby girl on my hip, at the culmination of all my most wonderful dreams.  Instead, I am living a technicolor nightmare, my days full but empty, my home peaceful but barren, my heart filled with love but shattered to pieces.  I know it seems that writing would offer me an “escape,” but the truth of the matter is that there simply is no escaping this sorrow.  Writing has always been a joy for me; right now it feels like a chore, and a betrayal.  And I really don’t want to lose my love of writing to this tragedy, too.

So, I’ve decided to officially postpone the release of the book.  I’m not going to lie – I don’t know when I’m going to finish it.  I’m still hopeful that it will be soon, perhaps next year, maybe the year after. Or who knows, maybe as soon as I hit “publish” on this post the weight of expectations will lift and I’ll feel ready to begin. Either way, I just want to be honest with you, my faithful readers: I just don’t know.  But once I have anything definitive to report, I promise you will be the first to hear.

Thank you again for all of your understanding and support.

Sincerely,
Samantha

PS – In the meantime, check out the What Tomorrow May Bring anthology which includes Stitch as one of 10 highly-rated full-length YA dystopian reads for only $2.99, releasing May 1st on Kindle.

9 thoughts on “Update: Stuck (Stitch Trilogy, Book 3) Release

  1. I hope you are doing ok (as ok as you can be), and I don’t think anyone will be upset over the pushed back date of Stuck.
    I will always be here if you (virtually) need someone to talk to.
    My thoughts have been with you since the day I first heard about the tragedy.
    I can only try to understand what you are going through, and I am lost for words.

    Gina xx
    P.s. I changed my blog name to Behind the Pages, from Behind a Million and One Pages. Just incase you got lost :)

  2. Dear Samantha ,

    I can only imagine what you are going through I know your aunt Christine well if you ever need anyone to talk to ask her for my number although I have not gone through the tragedy you have I have lost babies in different ways if you need anything I am here for you
    All my prayers go out to you
    Tara

    • Thanks so much, Michael. I will definitely write it someday – can’t leave a trilogy unfinished! – and do I hope it is worth the wait. I’m sure at least it will be better than if I tried to do it now. :-)

  3. I am lost for words after reading this post. I’m not sure what to say, where to start. I fell in love with your books, and couldn’t stop myself from reading them even for a short walk to the grocery store. I would like to let you know that my thoughts are with you. I cannot imaged what you are going through and as Gina said, no one will ever be upset over the pushed back date of the 3rd book. I will pray so one day you feel the joy that you used to feel when writing.

    Much Love from a fan.

    • Thanks so much, Rose, I really can’t express how much it means to me that so many readers like you have been so supportive both of my writing in general, and in my time of need. You guys are truly amazing. :-) Thank you again.

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